About this blog

The pieces will fit together at some point, the lines will be drawn and everything will fall into place. But not today. There's much too much to go into. There's too much heartache and injustice and pain to handle or believe all at once. And that's not the point of this blog anyway.

Facts:

I made some bad decisions.

I made some good decisions.

I made some bad decisions that I thought were good decisions.

I have six children. Four from my first marriage, and two from my present marriage.

My four oldest children live with their father.

I miss them dearly, every day and love them with all my heart.

I suffered from PTSD for many years as a result of my first marriage and the subsequent happenings (divorce, custody battles, etc).

I'm starting to feel alive again, almost six years later.

A phone call from a riding instructor made more difference than years of therapy and medications ever did.